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Thursday, January 05, 2006
Im about to turn lesbian any day now. U all can guess by the pattern of how things go with the opposite sex that I no longer talk to EJ. I swear he had more drama than a females. From talkin about he is fighting for custody of his daughter, when i thought she already lived with him, to him callin me talkin about I need you to rent me a car with your credit card so I can run errands. da fuck i look like. I told the nigga he needed to get his shyt together b4 he tries to make it happen with me, not sayin we should stop talking, just he needs to get his life together first, and he flipped and didnt call me until the day he asked me to rent him a car 3 days later. Mind you I was in the doctors office about to get my laser eye surgery when he asked me this on the phone. I was like uhhhhh sorry Im kinda bizzy. And den he went on to try to explain I got him heated when i told him we need to slow down, that's why he didnt call,as if it were a big ass loss for me. Come on now. When we first met you had your shyt together and things became undone since that day. You went backwards my brotha.
Anyway, at this moment, m dating or whatever. No one worth mentioning. Ive learned to pace myself when it comes to building myself up over anyone.
In other news: IM GONNA START MY OWN COMPANY!!!!!!
Posted at 10:42 am by LuvMeFellas
Monday, October 10, 2005
... in the game that is. I have moved on from Imani, I have moved on from the coworker... I have simply moved on.
Now I know everytime yall turn around Im talking about the next man, or this man or that man. You dayum right, men are like buses, they come every 15mins. Thus, ladies and gentlemen, I bring you EJ.
EJ: I met on his bday(VIRGO) at a club, while I was supposbly with Imani. For some reason I gave him my number with no intentions of calling him back if he ever called me. What do you know, two days after we meet, he calls. I say yo I cant talk Ill call you back, I never call. I few days later, he calls me again, I say oh ok Imma call u, I never do. Im think ok he wont call anymore. NOPE, he calls me and we talk. Im like I have a bf, he lives such and such, he's like coo, we can be friend's and Ill wait until you decide u dont want to be with him because eventually, you will be my girl. Im thinking what a cocky ass mofo, but whateva.
He decides, on my bday, since no one else wanted to take a sista out, to come to LP and take me out. AWWWWWWWWWWW how nice. We go to dinner, Im like ok this dude is cool, got ish going on, got 5-10 cars, owns his own biz, has his own place.. oh wait what? huh? "I have a daughter" awwwwwwww hell to da naw bobby. He tells me the story, she lives with him, blah blah blah, Im thinkin it dont matter because duhhhhhhhh, I have a man anyway. But I guess my charm must have intriged him because he really said he was feeling me, tellin me how there is something about him that makes him want me, gf wise, and that we'll end up together, etc. Im like yea sure.
So umm, at this moment Im still like not feeling him. And then we go to Roscoes one day and OMG, we kiss. Im like oh shat, did I cheat? I think so, but it doesnt feel like it. Keep in mind, EJ has been telling me all this stuff. he says he cant talk to me as a friend because he wants me as more, Im like fine we better stop talkin, he says no no no, I rather have you as a friend then not at all. Im like this is becoming to much. I mean he has gotten emotionally attached in one month. He is trippin the thought that Im going to see Imani the following weekend and doesnt want him kissing or tounching me. im like dude he is my man.
So, long story short, I dont see Imani cuz... well yall know why, and I tell EJ Imani and I aint together, he mustve been the happiest MF.
Now to present day. He and I went out yesturday. And until that day I kept myself from really liking him because of the situation with Imani. Yesturday I opened up and realised I am feeling EJ him. I definatly like is dedication and confidence and thinking he is gonna get me. I cant front, he might. But I know he is off to a good start.
So this is where I am at the moment. Stay tuned.....
Posted at 03:04 pm by LuvMeFellas
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
- Some African from Nigeria tried to pick me up via Black Voices on AOL. Im like mutha fucka, speak some sort o English. Lemme find the email he sent.....
OK Ok here it is...
" Hi,
How are you doing..i'm yemmi,a black african,i saw
your profile in bv and am really interested in knowing
you..holla back lets talk..,
love,
yemmi"
MY RESPOND WAS "Rigggggggggggght!!!!"
HE THEN SAYS:
"Hi,
Thanks for the mail,i really do appreciate you
replying,i really want to get to know you that well
and we could be lifelong friends,did i am from Nigeria
and in my final year in a university over
there.I hope coming over after i complete here i mean
the states to work,live and raise a family.
I'll want us to get to know each other very well,i
hope to send my pics to you soon,and will appreciate
it if you can send yours too.We could get talking on
the phone but i feel you might not want to give out
your number now cause i'm still a stranger|(smile\).
Please do tell me,do you have a stabble relationship,i
mean someone you might be involved with.Hope i'm not
getting too much intimate with your private life.
All the same thanks for the mail and i hope you'll
holla back.
love,
yemmi"
MY RESPOND WAS "I didnt really reply to you with interest. In fact Im not interested.
Good Luck With School."
So now I have yet to see what he says, hopefully he says nothing else. I mean for all I know dude could be the prince of Nigeria and shyt and Im str8 missing out by rejecting already, but umm, I dout that so he can kick rocks.
In other news, I loooooooooooooooove my pocket pc. It's great, Im listening to bootleg songs on it as I type. I can watch movies and listen to music, type upa report and surf the web all on tis lil thing let cost 243 bucks on ebay. Its great. Now if only my mini keyboard werent trippin.
My lips are chapped. Where's my carmex?
I miss Percy, I wish he'd come back from Arkansa already. Percy is my homie and ex coworker at the airport. We kick it hard. If only he were interested in me romanticly Id have a boyfriend. We do everything together but sex, GIVE UP THE PENIS ALREADY P, DANG., naw jk. I love our friendship, he gives me male pointofview advice about males. Its great.
Shout out to my NOTY CAM, who actually reads this.
Oh yea, I had my eye consultations last friday and it's official, I AM GETTING LASER EYE SURGEY on Oct 29. thanks mom and stepdad, I know it's gonna be great. BYE BYE CONTACTS AND GLASSES.
Why da hell are so many people remaking songs?
Im so mad that the new singer NEYO is ACTUALLY a dude named SHAFFER, that my girl Shoshana went on a date with last yr. LOL. She and I went on a double date with him and his friend Kevin (LOL KEVIN CAN BE SEEN ON THAT COREY CLARK INTERVIEW. HE IS THE SHORT FRIEND OF COREY CLARK, WHO CALLS HIMSELF COSIGNING THAT COREY HAD SOMETHING GOIN ON WITH PAULA), riggggggggght. Anywho, I met Kevin at a club, he brought a friend (Shaffer), I brought a friend (ShoSho) and we all went to Jerry's deli on Beverely blvd. Shaffer aka Neyo sang to Shosho right at our booth. Who knew he was an actual singer working with def jam. Awww Shosho girl u missed out. Lucky for u he aint too cute.
My boss is funny, i like him.
Woo hooo, today is Chinese Wedneday with the parents. I think Ill have sweet and sour shrimp today.
I still havent heard from Imani, I hope he died, at least that wouild be a legitamate reason for no contact. Bitch ass nigga.
Im not bitter.
Charle Last name Wilson, he looks like he has on too much dayum make up on in that video, but u still coo with me.
I swear if I become a one hit wonder and want to get back in the game, Ima hire R Kelly to help me out because dude be reviving some careers.
I never realized how many transsexuals are on santa monica blvd. its crazy.
Im still in love with my coworker dayum it. Of course I was just in love with someone else last week, but that does not matter. I will never give up my love for the coworker and no Im not talking about Percy.
Where da hell is my carmex?
Halloween is near, I must go to Knotts Scary Farm and to the Queen Mary for sure... eerything else is open.
Woo hoo Daylights saving ends this month, fall back = one more hr of sleep.. CHUURCHH!!!!
That's it
Posted at 11:29 am by LuvMeFellas
Monday, October 03, 2005
WEll, well, well. I knew going into this that there was a possiblity that Imani would turn out to be all that I wanted and more OR he could be totally fake.
Welp ladies and gentalmen, I have no idea how he is in person because I didnt end up going to see him weekend. As stated in my last entry, the ass hole never called me backa and never made any attepmt, that I know of, to get a hold of me. Therefore, I figured he stood me up a week in advance, giving me that week to figure out that that was what he was doing.
I DONT UNDERSTAND THAT AT ALL? What was the point of these two weeks? Why could he just say that he didnt want me to come instead of allowing me to purchase my own plane ticket and wasting my money. (I did cancel the trio and have a yr. to use it to go where ever I want.) I mean really. My girl says he just got freaked out and thats why he just hasnt called. I say fuck that. Aint like we met he shouldve been bold enough to say something.
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Oh well, Im not mad, I knew that some shyt was gonna happen. The worst possible things that could happen to me in a relationship tend to happen. I think I must have done a lot of people wrong that all this bs is coming back at me in the past 3 relationships Ive been in, they fucked me over.
My conclusion, he is aouink who probably was married with children and he didnt know how to be a man and say yo Im takin, so he just punked out. Iono.
Its coo though.
I FORGIVE YOU IMANI, I STILL THINK YOU ARE SEXY AS HELL AND I WOULDVE COME OUT THERE JUST TO FUCK YOU. YOU SHOULDVE AT LEAST LET ME COME OUT THERE SO WE COULD BONE AND THEN NEVER HAVE TALKED TO ME AGAIN. AT LEAST ID UNDERSTAND THAT ALL U WANTED WAS SOME SEX AND SINCE YOU GOT IT, YOU DIDNT WANT TO TALK TO ME ANYMORE. SINCE THAT'S NOT WHAT HAPPENED, IM TOTALLY CONFUSSED ABOUT WHAT THIS WAS ALL ABOUT. OH WELL AS LONG AS YOU KNOW.
CHOWWWWWW!!!
Posted at 09:50 am by LuvMeFellas
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
So last time I typed in here I said my boo wasnt calling as much since he started school, blah blah. Well, he still doesnt call as much, maybe even less then he did b4. But I was dealing with whatever. He even got better at one point.
The whole purpose of this entry is because today Im thinking too many things and Im driving myself crazy. Im supppose to go out tovisit him in 4 days count them 1 2 3 4 days people, and I have not talked to my boo in 3days. So im freaking out because I need some sort of reasurrance that everything is set for my arrival.
My main thing is that I, yes I bought the dayum plane ticket, so Im trippin that my 280 bucks will just be gone because this dude decided to play, maybe if i dont cal lher backshe'll just go away game. But then I have to ask the question oof WHYYYYYYYY!!! If he didnt want me to come, why would he be claiming to be excited this whole month, just to stand me up? I dont get it.
Good news is that I believe that because the time I purchased my eticket via united.com, I will recieve a refund if I so choose to. If I dont hear from this mofo by tomorrow, Im NOT going and Im getting my fuckin refund and going shopping.
Sadly, I wont be upset then, because at least I wouldnt have to do the long distance thing, what there is of it, anymore. We havent had sex so he cant say he hit it. And like I said to yall in previous entries, my heart wouldnt be broken because its already so numb.
So either way I win in the outcome.
I could be trippin and everything could turn out good. I really do want to see him, even if this is the one and only time I did. He is sooooooo fuckin sexy Id fly out there just to bone. Lol jk boo.
Anywho, Ill let yall know what happens in a few days.
*gets on knees and prays" Posted at 03:26 pm by LuvMeFellas
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
A Turn... for the worst???
Well everyone, it appears as though, well I guess it doesnt have to APPEAR because the truth of the matter is it is SO. My boo Imani is suppose to be here in Cali, with ME.
Id say on sunday aug. 28th I recieved some news that literally made me cry, and I cry for noooooooooooo negro. Imani tells me that he is not coming to LA. He is going to school in W. Virginia where he has recieved a full scholarship to play bball at Bethany college. My heart shattered from the thought that Ive been committed to tis man that Ive never seen, opened my heart to a guy Ive never laid my eyes on all because I was under the impression that we would one day, sooner than later, would unit and live happily ever after... blah blah blah. NOTTTTTTT!!!!
He says he's going to make a better life for himself, for us cuz hopefully he'll get drafted into the nba and that it is only going to be for one school yr. and if he doesnt get drafted he'll be transferring to a school out here in LA anyway.
"WE ARE NOT BREAKING UP," he says. So my situation as of now is that Im in a long distance relationship with a guy Ive never met all because I feel that he is the ONE. I cant be mad at the brother for doin his thing. Plus, Ive always said I wanted a man who not only had dreams and aspirations but is also doing something to abtain them.
Of course I have all this negative talk in my ear, mainly from dudes who I use to talk to but decided I was gonna cut because I wanted to do the commitment thing reguardless of Imani not being around.
In the end this will either work out GREEEEEAT and we will live happily ever after or Ima str8 be made the fool of. However, Ive come to look at the bright side of both possible outcomes. I get my man if it turns out the way I want and the way it should. Or Ill come out of it with the knowing that I am ready for commitment, that I have the ablity to trust a person, I use to not trust anyone, a clean slate as far as keeing backups around just so I dont get played by my main squeeze, and the joy of knowing that at least I put my all into and saw what happen as oppose to what would have happened IF.
So I think Im good either way. Of course Im staying positive and keeping faith that WE will happen. School yr is not a full year its about 6months. there are holiday breaks, and shyt and Im going out to see him on the 30th so woooooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
Anywho, I cant tell u how I feel. I have mixed feelings because our communication has become aomewhat small compared to how it use to be. Im selfish when we get down to it. If you start off callin we alll the tme, that's how I want it. Unfortunatly, with school and all and him tryin to focus, that's not possible. He even told me this way b4 that we only talk as much because he's not in school. Back then I was able to except that because I figured he would be out here and me not talkin to him would not matter because, well, he'd be 15mins away from my ass and Id just see him. But noooooooooooooooooooo that aint happening and I cant see the nigga and now I hardly get to talk to his ass. I feel like im a crack head goin thru withdraws and shyt tryin not to call him but Im goin through heat flashes cuz i needa hit. That's where Im at not. Im tryin not to call im and allow him time to get settled, blah blah blah. But Im sayin all I asked the negro for is 5mins a day thats it, on the way to class before ya go to bed, something, and after i got no call from him at all yesturday, which was a holiday, I see now that 5 lil mins, is not do-able. I mean Im sacraficin my ass off here lemme get some kinda effort.
Im funny, i go from positiive to negative just like that. Well I dont wanna vent to him cuz he probably wont offer a solution to my issue since he couldnt even commit to the 5mins. So all I can do is write in my lil blog about how it sucks that Im freakin sprung off some dick ive never had and goin crazy over some dude Ive never fuckin met. And the fact that he isnt callin makes me wonder is he remotely even as interested in me as I am of him because this is some bullshyt man. I use to could just think about him hard and the nigga would call. Now Im lucky if he response to my txt mesage. He is even slippin on the call backs. "oh imma call you right back I gotta take a shyt." He must still be takin a shyt cuz the nigga aint called me back yet. BULL FUCKIN SHYT I tell ya.
But I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him like a fat kid luvs cake. We'll be aight.
Posted at 12:06 pm by LuvMeFellas
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
My bad yall. I dayum near forgot I had this blog... AGAIN. Who cares, I dont see anyone peeping it out anymore anyway so blah.
Uhhhhhhhh lets see. What is the goings on? Welp Imani and I are stillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll making it happen and NO I aint seen him yet. So what, Im feelin him anyway. Im just praying that we vibe this well in person. WOOOO HOOOO. Im just excited off the anticipation of he and I together physically, not saying sexually, although Im not denying that is what Im saying either. But just the thought of he and I not being limited to phone conversations as if we were jail birds locked up with the only reason to continue on with life is the thought that he and I will soon be free, free to be, be with each other.
I know, Im chessy, corny, whateva. But I have never ever eva eva eva, felt this way. And I mean NEVER. So you see, there has to be something about this man that makes me want to say the sort of things that come out of my mouth when I talk about him. I dont know what it is. But I know one thing. I will NOT let IT nor HIM get away.
PLEASE BELIEVE ME!!!!
Posted at 04:48 pm by LuvMeFellas
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
So I was listening to the radio on my way to work and they asked the question, "if you had the chance to learn when and ow you were going to die, would you want to know?" Of course there are mixed feelings about this subject. My answer however is.....
I'd want to know when, but not really how. Because if you know when than you have a deadline, no pun intended, to get everything you think needs to be done in order for you to have had, what you would consider, a happy and fulfilled life. We are a worl of procrastinators,maybe knowing when you will die will give you that boost of motivation you may have needed. Plus, knowing alows you to take care of things on the bizness side, such as taking care of your loans and ish like that so that you do not leave ther burden of this all on your family wants you are gone. Most people dont get to plan their funerals because they didnt know they were about to attend one, letalone, be the guest of honor. By knowing, YOU set the tone of how people shpuld feel when you are gone. PLUS, it prepares others for when it is time for you to go.
So I believe knowing has its perks. Now of course if you find out you are dying in about a week from the present, you arent gonna get much done productively, but at least you can try to right some wrong, and make ya last week the BEST WEEK of your life.
So while listening to the radio some one through out questions dealing with everyday life. First off, everyone starts off with 79 points. if you are blk u subtract 6, right handed add one, left handed subtract 2, smoker subtract 5, male subtract another 5. Work out add 2... and so on. I dont remember all the exact questions, i just wrote down the numbers that applied to me. My result was Im living until the age of 87.... that's a good age.
So I was looking on the computer to see if I could maybe look up some sort of site where the folks from the radio might have gotten these questions. I did not find them, but I came across a site called, www.Day4death.com I typed in my b-day, answered the questions and the result was
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When you will die: Sunday September 6, 2076, at age of 93. |
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Get quotes on: Term, Whole and Easy Issue Life Insurace |
| Where you will die: |
| Nursing Home |
43.10% |
| In Patient |
33.70% |
| Residence |
15.30% |
| Out Patient/ ER |
4.00% |
| Other places |
2.80% |
| Dead on Arrival |
1.00% |
| Status unknown |
0.00% |
| Place unknown |
0.00% |
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| How you will die: |
| Heart disease |
38.20% |
| All other causes |
19.60% |
| Malignant cancer |
11.70% |
| Stroke |
10.20% |
| Influenza and pneumonia |
4.80% |
| Alzheimer's disease |
4.30% |
| Lower respiratory disease |
4.20% |
| Diabetes |
2.10% |
| Kidney disease |
1.80% |
| Accidents |
1.80% |
| Blood poisoning |
1.40% |
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Who died on September 6:
1990 - Musician, Creedence Clearwater Revival - Tom Fogerty, dies at 48, aids
1984 - Country music singer - Ernest Tubb, dies at 70, emphysema
1977 - Writer, the Hardy Boys - Leslie McFarlane, dies at 74
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WOO HOOOOO!!!!!
Im livin la vida loca until im 93. So if I average out both test that's 90. That's a cool age. At least Ill experience the old life.
Of course there is no tru way to determine when we'll go. But if I go at 90, im pretty certain life will be da shyt dogggggggggggggggg!!!!!
Posted at 09:39 am by LuvMeFellas
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Took a bunch of tests on www.tickle.com
Here are the results.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
shadonna, you're a
Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.
For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.
The Ideal Relationship Test
Which Relationship is Right for You?
shadonna, the thing you need most in a relationship is Deep Connection
In your ideal relationship you and you partner would be deeply and passionately connected. This sense of intimacy is really important for you. As is the need for certain rules and an understanding of who wields the power in your relationship. But regardless of how this works, your deep need for this kind of closeness will ultimately drive your relationship.
Do You Follow Your Heart or Your Head?
shadonna, you follow your
Whether you planned it or not, you just can't help but follow your feelings when it comes to matters of l'amour. You're a passionate person who can't ignore things that fit you to a T — whether it's that perfect pair of jeans, a good cause, or the love of a lifetime.
Sure, things don't always go according to plan, but with an irrepressible drive like yours, you'd better get used to it! Living life as a fake just isn't in the cards for you. So open up your arms and embrace what life throws your way — especially if it happens to be the man of your dreams!
The Emotional IQ Test
How People-Smart Are You?
shadonna, your Emotional IQ is
This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success.
Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.
So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is perception — your ability to pick up on what others are feeling.
Because of this, you are unusually good at reading people's verbal and non-verbal cues. You're especially aware of the subtleties of people's actions, and can feel out the vibe of a situation better than many. That gives you and edge many wish they had. People with high perception skills like yours, however, tend to rely on them to the exclusion of others. As a result, they sometimes have underdeveloped abilities in other realms of critical emotional intelligence like managing emotions, empathy, and being expressive.
To truly excel in life and know how to relate to different people, you need to balance out the different kinds of emotional intelligence.
Research indicates that if people who are strong in perception can work to increase their overall emotional IQ score, they can prepare themselves to handle any interpersonal exchange with amazing skill — especially by learning to be empathetic and by being able to express what it is they are feeling or trying to say.
And the good news is that people who try to improve their emotional IQ have far greater success than people who try to improve their IQ.
What's Your Lucky Number?
shadonna, your lucky number is number Eight!
"There're three ways of doing things around here," the Boss says. "My way, my way, and sometimes it's okay to do it my way." To paraphrase He-Man: You have the power! Yes, Number 8, like a Sears DieHard battery, you are all about power—acquiring it, using it, and sharing it. Well, maybe not sharing it, but definitely acquiring it. You are a natural leader, but since you have to crack a few eggs to make an omelet, don't be surprised if your popularity fluctuates like a NASDAQ ticker. If things don't go your way, get ready, it's tantrum time. Your desire to control situations certainly bodes well for ascending the ranks at work, but ladders turn to chutes when you step on the wrong toes. It's your close friends who see through the hot air, and they're usually the only ones who will stand toe-to-toe with you and call you on it. It's good to be king, and with that declaration can come all the excesses of power. Tone it down a little, Bosses. Lower the volume, check your speed, share your time, and for Pete's sake, learn to compromise. Your biggest challenge, like those faced by fellow 8s, Al Capone, Barbara Walters, and Muhammad Ali, might be developing a sense of what your power can do for oth-ers.
The Ultimate Personality Test
The Real You: A Scientific Analysis
shadonna, you're a
Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Movie Star which means you are a
Golden / Success Your primary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.
That means you're a bright ray of sunshine who secretly wonders why you're not famous yet. Chances are you don't get annoyed with people very easily, and you can handle stressful situations with grace. As if all that weren't enough, you're friendly, charming, and great with people.
How do we know all this? How do we know that you like making your work environment cozy and hospitable? Or that you spend a lot of time on your appearance? How could we have divined that you never shy away from asserting your ideas and opinions, and encourage others to do the same?
Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions — questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance — the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Movie Star.
And that's just scratching the surface.
Posted at 01:12 pm by LuvMeFellas
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
So, i've decided to try to do something different, and the something is write in here every dayum day. Unfortunatly today i dont have shyt to write about because I said pretty much all I had to say in my last entry yesturday. nothing has changed in the past 24hrs, therefore, I have nothing new to say. But at least i wrote somthing.
DEAL WITH IT SUCKAS.
Im out
Posted at 04:01 pm by LuvMeFellas
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